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08 September 2009 @ 09:52 pm
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Today, September 8th 2009 marks a day that I will never forget in my entire life. It is a day full of pain and anger, sorrow and tears and so much love.

I don't really know how to express myself except cry so many tears of heartache. I had never expected things to blow way out of proportion and how unbelievably upsetting things could turn out to be. What I truly don't understand and keep asking myself is "Why him?" "Why someone who had made such a small mistake and even sincerely apologize about it have to leave like this?" I don't understand why the world has to be so harsh and cruel and I especially don't understand how evil and inhumane people can be.

To all those netizens and anti-fans that have completely ruined my mood, my day, and especially mine and my sister's happiness and not to mention 2PM and Jaebum's dreams...

You all have no heart, you are cold, mean, selfish and disgusting. I wish so badly that I could do something right now, but I can't. I'm on the opposite side of the world and I feel so helpless just being stuck here. Nothing can express the hate I have building inside of me right now. I truly hope you all one day feel so ashamed and guilty for the things you've done and put a brilliant young man through, to the point where you feel like you want to die. I am especially angry that with all that has happened, making Jaebum choose the option of leaving, you now, feel sorry and are regretful. You all are a bunch of fucking morons. You all disgust me to the point of wanting to puke. You're just pathetic little cowards that have nothing to do but ruin people's lives. God will punish you one day and I sincerely believe it.

To all the members of 2PM who are so hurt right now. Oh how I wish I could just turn back time and even take your pain away. How I wish I could be there to comfort you and show you how much I love and support you all. Please be strong and keep standing tall. It hurts to know that we, the fans, and you, the members have lost a great leader, artist and friend. But there is still hope if we continue to believe that Jaebum will return and reunite with all of you, his brothers, and rightfully fulfill the position of 2PM's leader.

Lastly to Jaebum, I honestly admire and respect you. You've gone through so much hardships and trials to get where you are today. You are a great man, full of talent and amazing qualities. Please don't forget how much, we, the fans, love and believe in you. I wish I can be there for you and take away your pain, but please stay strong and continue to be happy. We only wish for you to achieve your dreams. Please do re-think about leaving 2PM. 2PM is incomplete without you. You are their one and only leader, please believe that and don't give up. Hottests are always with you forever by your side.

I can't help it, but my tears keep falling. I so badly wish to turn back time to the way things were supposed to be.

Park Jaebum, 我真的很愛你(I really do love you so much).
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